And we breathe easy again....until next time

Tiernan is still doing great!!!!!  

Still. 

Phew!  

Jason took him to cardio and then sent

my most favorite text in a long time. 

"All good news. BNP is down to 113. X-ray is clear. Echo is unchanged."

Thank you to all of you for sending extra special prayers and mojo our way this week. 

Maybe someday I'll get to approach these things with less worry and fear. 

I guess if I did a little more yoga and meditation with this boy that could be a good thing. 

I should have known better

Random person: How is Tiernan doing?

Me: Great!  At the moment. 

Random person: You must be so relieved now that he's doing so well. 

Me: Absolutely. For now. 

I never can seem to leave off the qualifier. 

I'm always waiting for the proverbial shoe to drop.

But just under a month ago Tiernan's labs came back with such great news. His BNP is under 50! Incredible!  So exciting. 

Potassium and another dose of Lasix d/c'd, and the living is easy. 

This must mean things are only looking up from here on out right???

Weeeelllll.....hold on a minute. Next labs in and not only was his BNP back up hovering around 100, but his creatinine (kidney numbers) was higher than it had been in a long time. 

Still. Could be a fluke. He wasn't super hydrated that time. Probably best not to put too much stock in those numbers. We'll get him drinking more and things will look better. 

So now the next labs come back with his kidneys looking great!  .35 actually. Practically perfect. 

Buuuuut....

BNP. 

Back up flirting with 200. Well, 178 to be precise. 

<insert defeated sigh>

I. Should. Have. Known. Better. 

So while I also know better than to get too far into the depths of despair, this is just one more example of why I keep finishing my sentences with

"...at the moment." and "...for now."

So please don't think I'm just being negative. Or pessimistic. 

These things change on the daily so celebrating small victories while maintaining a healthy dose of "this probably won't last long" is really the name of the game.  

The thing that never changes?  The cuteness factor remains off the charts.